I was awake early this morning – it was just after five and still dark. The nephew and nieces were asleep next door and had pinched all the blankets from my bed to wrap up against the chill whilst we munched sausages – cooked on the barbecue for the last time – for our dinner. Jack had crept under my duvet and was fast asleep, snuffling in his dreams. I could smell chill and the sea in the morning air and I realised it was time to acknowledge that summer was finally over. That the days would get shorter and the rains would soon be setting in. Despite all the life and warmth I had around me, the thought made me unbearably sad.
Then the alarm sounded and I was hurled into the day – getting the three dressed, fed, brushed and out of the house to school. Letting the cleaner in and telling her what was for lunch. Showing the gardener what needed doing. Feeding Jack, showering, dressing, pulling on a trench-coat against the cold morning. Hitting the highway – unassailable blues along for the ride
It was only as I crested the rise into town and saw the harbour that my sadness dissolved. I live in one of the most beautiful cities in the word and here it was laid out before me. Going about it’s boaty business. And I realised: sure there was change coming. But it was going to be just fine.
When we went for a walk this evening Jack scampered through the autumn leaves – chasing the Ibis in the park – who didn’t seem to mind. The air was crisp and fresh. I went to buy our supper and threw in a bag of clementines. The end is always bittersweet – the passing of the familiar and known, getting used to the new. But the end of summer is also a beginning – I have a brand new job with all manner of possibilities. And I knew just how I was going to mark it.
I’m writing this from my courtyard as I sip my Campari and Clementine in the last rays of the sun. I’m wearing both a warm woolen shawl and sunglasses. Cheers to you all, here’s to embracing change.
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